burfday boi & moi .. 

da burfday card .. or is it? 

weLL .. da coLour of eviL 

@ cineLeisure's Lips Cafe .. sure reminded me of da Long tabLe in movie The ViLLage 

Da Laggard Speaks

FinaLLy had some rejuvenated energy to jot something down after days of outings, footbaLL and stuff. My bLock Leave from "work" cudn't have come a better time than this .. needed it bad!

Remembered having a Swensen's affair @ PLaza Singapura with Kenneth, Yongren, Leon and May on Saturday evening, which was not to be actuaLLy. InitiaLLy was supposedLy to be juz me and CLement, but our time took itz toLL and he had to trottLe down to deLiver pizzas then. Thus made Last minute invitations but i have to reLi send my deeepest apoLogies to dear bastard, for i missed u out totaLLy. WiLL make u da first in Line for any events next time ehh. Coming back, we took a coupLe of hours on da tabLe taLking about stuff and enjoying our desserts, though itz to be sort of reunion with Leon, my mind was empty, not even my Cookie FreckLe Summit cud set me "wow-ing" over. Having done with Swensen's we made our way down EspLanade for a stroLL meeting up with Guowei and some usuaL photo taking, and da day then came to a cLose.

Da next morning we had a footbaLL match, in which we won 2-1 and i had a goaL. Itz reLi strange i've been grabbing goaLs these days. Lady Luck sure is smiLing on my footbaLL, but why she ain smiLing on other aspects of my Life as weLL has proven to be a BIG question mark. Ain reLi excited about scoring, for each time i scored i had something to dedicate to but not this time, and i wonder if itz aLL worthwhiLe. Empty goaL it is. Had our usuaL swim and Lunch @ Compass Point and some of us headed for another match for our senior team. Kenneth then came and picked us up from where we were and then headed to meet da rest up. But aLas, we got caught in da fucking jam! Watz worst, is dat at 8.30pm when da fireworks were reLeased, we got bLocked by Westin, and when we finaLLy caught a gLimpse of da highLight of our day, it ended. ALL these whiLe pedestrians seemed to move even more smoothLy than da cars.
Lesson Learnt : technoLogy ain everything, sometimes Legs can bring u further and faster. Having difficuLties Locating a parking Lot, we finaLLy decided to meet da rest up @ Lao Pat Sat. It was aLready haLf past 10 when we finaLLy met up and had dinner. WeLL there goes ..

damn .. saw this gorgeous babe and snapped one shot of her .. datz da one in yeLLow .. 

@ Promenade .. I tot tis pic was reLi cooL .. da peopLe seemed to be heading towards dayLight .. freedom from darkness. 

da finaL one .. before we Left EspLanade for home .. 

my modeLs for da day .. 

sweet cravings .. temptations .. urge to quench da dying desire for ice-cream, and so we did. 

The 3 Dudeys .. courtesy from May behind da scene .. we sure Looked hunkie under dim Light. 

Yongren and his Fish & Chips .. no comments about da food .. 

Kenneth .. with his Banana SpLit .. it sure Looked good .. 

guesz May's addiction for seLf taking is contagious .. which expLains da origin of tis pic .. 

@ swensen's .. datz me and Yongren trying to pose choosing from da menu haha .. 

After Thoughts

Okie I was juz feeLing miserabLe. For one, I Lost my battLe for da heart of a gaL for whom I gave my heart to someone I beLieve is a better guy than I am. Wat cud I do for these few days is but juz try to get myseLf busy with more stuff, more frenz, more food and more outings. It ain gonna be easy, but datz da way da game of Luv is pLayed, though itz da invisibLe scars of the inside datz watz aLways Left behind. And for me, it cudnt have gotten any far worse with one coming after another. FeLt Like an innocent man who got badLy stabbed not once but twice rite in da chest.
PameLa is now Leading a happy Life, and I feeL happy for her as weLL, as a fren and as someone whom i had once treasured as part of my Life. Datz da past.
But rite now, I cudnt heLp tinking if I had done some things in time dat cud have made da situations go my way in da past few weeks. Sometimes it may be too Late untiL u reaLise wat u shud have done, for regrets then appeared. I wished I cud give her my bLessings, but onLy if I knew she's reLi happy and confident dat she had made the right decision wiLL I Let go of wat am carrying. MayB itz unecessary, but from da start I had seen this bird with a broken wing dat I feLt I cud have heaLed it with care and concern, yet it fLew away even before it cud reLi soar .. into da hands of another. Nothing can I do but juz watch over it and hope .. simpLy hope it wud be a compLete bird one day and datz when I can but juz take my eyes off it ..

Wished uer reLi happy .. and I'd be too.

Had a good day today .. nice food from Swensen's and I met up with some buds .. good bye.

A Good Friday

Decided to hang out with my primary skooLmates in town and for da dunnoe how many times have I faLLen asLeep and overshot my train stop. "Next stop .. City HaLL interchange .." Wat the .. I was suppose to be at Somerset, from Yio Chu Kang! Grrr .. Lesson Learnt for once - 40 winks are never good. Anyway it deLayed me 10min, and I often wonder wat Luck I've been having nowadays. Nothing seemed to be going for me or rather, something seems to be coming for me. Got down to HMV and met them up. Haven been there for da Last 2 months man, recaLLed da Last time I was there was when May brought Deb for some "Eye for a Guy" thingy on us. She's aLways doing such things. Good oLd May. Then we had a superbLy fattening meaL @ Taka MaC eh. Seven of us in totaL, we used da coupons with free nuggets and da 2 tabLes we had were Like fuLL of food eh as we created a fries hiLL with aLL 7 medium fries. I shud have brought aLong my cam for da cosy affair da guys and me were having, pLaying wif da food and sauces dat had D.G needing to buy a tee for da "bLood stains" on his shirt LOL .. after which we got ourseLves stroLLing around, sitting around, taLking about stuff and of coz wat can seven guys do but peered at babes aLL around. However this bunch of buddies is reLi a seLfLess bunch as compared to my secondary skooL ones, for da tradition of sharing things is present. I doubt I can instiLL this mentaLity in da MayfLower guys, coz of da different cuLture we had, or mayB I am actuaLLy cLoser to my primary skooL dudes? I dunnoe .. but I am gratefuL for having these 2 bunch of frenz who are constantLy in my circLe regardLess of many peopLe who come and go, though I wud veri much Like them to stay as weLL ..

The BIG Wonder

Before anything, Im gonna mark my 50th post here .. and Looking back tru time .. guesz itz not dat bad for 3 months of posting. For a fLackback, I remembered one post I titLed The Night back in ApriL. WeLL I din expect myseLf to reLi get into wat I said and traveL aLong da ups and downs tru out da few months tiL now. It sure is a good heLL of a roLLercoaster ride .. had excitment .. had fear .. had confusion .. had suspense. Coming to the decLine of da ride, I can but juz Look forward to da next feature in vast Theme Park of Life. Anyway, Looking back at this "ride" of mine, I tink itz been a good Learning experience for me dat as May had once said, expect more and great disappointment Looms, expect Less and Less disappointment wiLL be reaped. WeLL, I tried to be an optimist by expecting da perfect scenarios I cud have, which resuLted in me Losing myseLf in the end. But how wud u ever attain success if u dun aim for da highest expectations, though risky?
I'd Like to justify and point out something such as in Luv, if uer afraid of putting too much into someone eLse, then u can never get da same amount u wan from dat someone as weLL. Twice I had done, giving aLL my heart to 2 LoveLy gaLs but I guesz it was juz not enuff .. mayB it wasnt time. Or mayB they were juz not da ones. BLame not on anyone, itz juz fate. WhiLe aLL we can do, is but Let fate bring us to wat we yearn and seek for ..

The ViLLage

ActuaLLy caught up with da peeps for this show Last evening. Wun go into detaiL how da story goes for most of u may not have seen it as yet, but I'd Like to say itz worth 4 out of 5 popcorns. In summary, it depicts how a viLLage preserves their simpLicity of Life tru great pains. SimpLicity, a word dat meant so much to me in reaLity and itz shown aLL over this movie whereby everyone were Like Leading their Lives each day as it comes and doesnt have to worrie what tomorrow brings about. Ain dat how we're suppose to be Living? Yes, in an ideaL worLd. But sadLy we're but Living in reaLity. Thinking about it, I tot I cud juz get out of tis ugLy worLd and Lead my way of Life wif a Luv which Luvs, and a pLace which doesnt bug u with da outside worLd. Singaporeans have been brought up to prepare for stiff competition, to dog their Lives tru out da 100 years they are entitLed to enjoy which at the end of it die a busy man. Question is .. why work so hard in da 1st pLace? For power and position? For a hopefuL future? Yes, itz true we need some paper shit to get us on wif Life here in Singapore, but does dat piece of shit reLi bring u wat u yearn for? U may have position, but not respect. U may have money, but not time. If u guys beLong in my League, mayB we shud juz create "A ViLLage" and juz spend da rest of our Lives in simpLicity, an ideaL worLd LoL, weLL I'd Like to be da Mayor, though.