Best I Ever Had

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now

But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had

So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely

Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better

But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
You're just the best I ever had

And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted

Bon Jour! Je m'apeLLe Laurent (Francais) et JiaLong et JL. Je suis ne a singaporien. J'aime footbaLL .. guesz I've returned da French stuff back to AngeLo aLready .. anyway too tired a day to bLog. Lots of work .. Lots of unusuaL emotions ..

The SP Tour

Some of u may be wondering why da heLL I was @ SP for .. weLL, I dunnoe myseLf. Met up with my primary skooL cLique at NYP Food Junction and when one of da dudes said he was heading for SP, thus tot I cud juz sneak down for a coupLe of hours away from my "office" to meet Deb. So I did, da MRT journey was reLi LONG .. LittLe wonder weeks back on her way to NYP, Deb said she kept Losing consciousness on da train. But on tis day, I had my fren. Anyway got there, and it was reLi strange feeLing to be in another skooL. We met up, had Lunch and my tour guide (u know who) took me around SP. Cudnt reLi imagine how da skooL's infrastructure goes, anyone whoz there for da 1st time is definiteLy a Lost Lamb without a shepherd. StiLL some of da things around da campus there were reLi famiLiar. MayB I had seen them before, or mayB it was peopLe Like Deb who had been instiLLing da pictures into me aLL these whiLe dat it automaticaLLy got downLoaded into my memory. Watever it is, SP sure is grand. We parted at minutes past 3, after which I embarked on da journey back to NYP tru da other direction. FeLt as if I've been Around Da IsLand In 80min. LoL. ALmost got into troubLe for being AWOL from "office", my supervisor was Looking for me but thank goodness my teamates covered it aLL up for me. Luv them for dat. Had chicken chop this time, guesz I'LL drop by for other foods at the 6 food courts they have there ..

mentos commerciaL 2 .. 

mentos commerciaL 1 .. 

da accidentaL dreamy effect taken of Deb .. sure Looked good! 

wonder how cooL it is to be in SP's Biz bLock? Dat .. though I was trying to shun from Deb's cam  

100 Years

Has aLways come to my attention dat we human beings are but juz an existing organism, an animaL, a constitution of a triLLion ceLLs. WeLL I apoLogise to aLL other reLigions especiaLLy Guoann who has his aLL-time faith in Christ dat I cud nvr bring myseLf to beLieving in afterLife. Too many doubts casted inside of me aLready so .. too bad. If I have to perish in heLL, so be it, as aLL these wiLL come after my 100 years, ain it? Thus, why shud we even bother about afterLife? StiLL I have great respect for da beLievers for reLigions make a person spirituaLLy better, though I doubt I need it.
Have aLways beLieved dat Life is a given chance, something dat is speciaL and dat everyone is Lucky to be borne into this worLd. Therefore we shud aLL but enjoy our Lives as fuLLy as possibLe. Dare to do wat u yearn and dream of, dare to Luv who u dream of going for, dare to aLways reach for da impossibLe.
As such, u wun be Leaving behind regrets when u finaLLy have to cLose ur eyes forever. Thus, do ur stuff guys .. juz do it. Time ain gonna wait for u .. itz in motion. GaLs ain gonna stay there .. they've aLways got choices. Ur age is catching up .. do something in da meantime. MayB u may say Im crazy, but I say I craziLy do prove a point, though sometimes things dun go my way.

DICK (datz me) taLking to JOE .. taken with Tootz Team. 

one of da rare niceLy taken pics during da camp (fyi datz Camy, my ex-cLaszmate cum cLosest mate in da Union since Year 1).. ain she bubbLy?  

tis is simpLy my aLL time favourite sneaks.. Adidas SaLa .. wud be hard to get a repLacement though. 

Rock CLimbing = Life Process?

Haven tried rock cLimbing in ages, untiL Saturday as part of da camp program. Was watching da freshies trying out da thing and stuff, sure Looked easy from a 2nd party's view. Therefore I decided to give it a go. Man, da 1st step was one of da difficuLt moves, gotta baLance and puLL urseLf up. I struggLed quite a whiLe there eh .. and when I finaLLy got it going, I was in troubLe thinking of wat da next move is. And then I got going .. tiL I was stuck again at da 4th bLock (there were 10 bLocks to da top). FinaLLy Lost my grip at da 5th bLock and I was swinging back and forth. Managed to get myseLf back to da waLL again and I resumed my cLimb. Then I heard a voice, " red one on ur Left ..!!" Im pretty sure I din see da red one earLier on .. it muz have juz been fixed in. Stretched for it .. and my baLance was cooL now. Then again, a voice came, " da bLue one .. ur right side .." Ok, I muz have got shortsightedness, and nothing more (damn my ego LoL). However I sLipped and got swinging again. Kept trying to get back to da waLL but to no avaiL as my hands were aLready weak. But da voices din stop, there was somebody down there asking me to get back there. However I have aLready Lost aLL my strength and eventuaLLy had to come down.
A simpLe game of rock cLimbing, had made me seen tru Lots. Rock cLimbing is juz Like ur Life's journey. As u embarked on it, no doubt da path is difficuLt and sometimes u do get Lost. StiLL there are peopLe out there who wiLL keep their faith and support in u .. when u faLL, they wiLL wan u to get up. When u wanna give up, they wun wan u to. Sometimes as Long as u've done ur utmost best, itz enuff aLready no matter wat da resuLts are. As WiLLiam Hung once said he had given his best and had no regrets at aLL, sure is naive yet with such genuinity dat comes right from da heart.
I'd been da piLLar for other peopLe in da past, and of coz I cant heLp but be gratefuL for whoever is down there urging for me. WeLL Looking back in time, I cud see a few peopLe who have reLi inspired and changed my Life forever and I'LL share them when I got da time. Can u recaLL da piLLars of ur Life? Hope u do .. juz Like I do.

HighLights

Da camp went fantasticaLLy great! As a GL (group Leader), I thought I did my utmost best to make my freshies as comfortabLe as they cud be, and so I did. There were 6 groups in totaL, and a massive 70 freshies came. My group (fyi - we named outseLves The Tootz coz they thought I Looked bLur) had 3 guys initiaLLy, and they caLL us Tom, Dick and Harry. Who eLse but me being da DICK. Da few days datz gone past with peopLe knowing me as Dick, but itz fine coz there in my group there's a SLut, Bitch, Ass and a Joe. Before I forget, my group made up a skit on da 1st nite on a Gay Pageant and damn, they had it aLL fiLmed down! No doubt I had great potentiaL to be a trans, but it was aLL for entertainment's sake. Da freshies down da stage sure enjoy themseLves tru out, weLL datz aLL dat matters. But geez, our 2nd day pLans in Pasir Ris Park got disrupted by da storm, though it was onLy 2pm before it rained. We had pLayed some other games Like American FootbaLL and Tug-o-war and Dog-&-Bone (no doubt nxt time we shud pLay these games at Sentosa) before da drops came on us. At this point of time, I feeL dat a speciaL bond had aLready been instiLLed in me and my freshies. They were Like LittLe sisters and brothers, aLways trying to poke fun into me. Freshies from other groups were aLso getting into me, for Im da famous "Miss Egypt" of da earLier nite LoL. Good bunch of fun peopLe who brightened my day .. though I stiLL ponder over da Lost of my weekend.
"Everything dat has a beginning, has an end" .. as I remembered quoted by The Matrix movie. True enuff, when have u reLi seen eternity? As da camp drew to a cLose, aLthough it was us GLs who have given them a Learning experience, but u gotta give credit of how da camp went aLong to da freshies who made da moments aLL count. They even bought us a surprise cake whiLe we were having a meeting and Leaving them on their own! So touched man .. this batch sure rocks, and I cant wait to work with them in da Union.

7 a.m

It is 7am rite now, 10min since I woke up and 4 hours after I Left for bed earLier on. Kinda missed Lots of things ; sLeep, my bed, home-cooked food, warm bathing water .. been a Long 2 nitez which I haven sLept cooL, but at Least I got my handphone with me aLL da time and get to be on MSN for once. Im now at da interactive camp for my CCA which is aimed at fostering a togetherness between da seniors and "freshies". However, I have finaLLy reaLised da agony and pLight dat Leon has been going tru. Im juz 3 days, him for dunnoe how Long which I doubt I can take it as weLL. Anyway I tot da 1st day went cooL, da turnout was great and I gotta know a heLL Lot of new fun peopLe. ReaLised for da past few weeks I had been meeting Lots of new peopLe. StiLL they simpLy cant repLace those whom I aLways had da best moments with out of skooL .. weLL gotta get prepared for breakfast now .. gonna be a Long day ahead at Pasir Ris Park in coupLe of hours' time. Wished I cud juz have a few hours out of this shit juz to see u for a minute ..

tis is da path i was toking about @ Boon Keng MRT .. stretches at Least a 100m .. 

The Drama - Eternity

"Amazing grace .. how sweet da sound .. dat saved a wretch Like me .."
Heard this at the church where da drama was heLd yesterday. Man, I knew this song! Learnt it during da secondary skooL days, but Im not into Christ (for Christ's sake). WeLL da cast brought up a good show, especiaLLy satan and his deviLs. I do feeL for da cute LittLe angeLs though, stood there tru out da hour or so whiLe I was sitting so comfortabLy in my seat. They muz have feLt da sore in their feet. After everything, it rained, din dampen my spirits though. And we had to foLLow some things da "preacher" toLd us to do .. stand .. hoLd hands and stuff. It was aLL rubbish La. But it sure feeLs good to be hoLding Deb's hand for da 1st time .. wasnt da way I wanted it though.
For a fLashback, I was reLeased at 5.30 and went waLking round my skooL, watched a game of hockey and then got down to Athar for a prata dinner. Sometimes, being aLone does da wonder of souL reLief, of coz itz aLways better if someone cud juz be by ur side. Became one of da rare earLy birds, where I was behind GuoAnn and May as they were aLready there. Yongren arrived minutes Later, Deb got caught in da Longest MRT path u shud have seen at Boon Keng mrt. I din reLi noe wat she meant untiL I took da path myseLf after da whoLe thing. Everything today went reLi great .. and I hope everyone feLt da same too ..

da guys at ILem church ..  

my dinner for da day .. prata at Athar House of Serangoon Road 

my "coLLeagues" whom i spent 24/7 with these days 

If I Let You Go

Another day, yet da same shit .. man, da stupid radio juz aired one of my aLL-time cLassics in WestLife's If I Let U Go. Ain da best time to Listen to such a song, but it sure reminded me of a crush I had years back. Had a wonderfuL few months then, but sometimes things dun go da way u wan them to .. and datz juz Life and itz up to u to accept da harsh reaLity. I've seen Heather a whiLe back, and itz good to hear dat she's doing great, working as an air stewardess, have a stabLe Life and most importantLy being happy. Happiness? Yea .. itz watz everyone's working for ain it? But how many of us can be reLi happy and cooL about everything datz in motion, datz revoLving and datz going fast and furious? If everyone cud juz Live for da moment, in simpLicity, I guesz many things cud have been better off.